Just Some Random Musings

So I'm sitting here, listening to Oasis, and wondering what the hell I'm going to do with my life, among other things. I mean, I'm almost 21 years old and about 2 years from graduating. That means the real world is just 2 years away. Am I ready? Oh God no. Actually, I take that back. I am ready for what the real world has to offer, but I'm not completely confident in my ability to handle it like a pro.

But at the same time, I want to be done with school, I want to move on with my life and face those challenges. I want to move out of Michigan, do something completely out of the ordinary and unexpected, and most importantly, be happy with the decisions I've made.

I've thought this for the longest time, and I'll say it again - a huge part of me would gladly sacrifice money for happiness, and happiness for me, at this point in my life, means gratification, knowing I've made a difference in the world. There was a point during this summer where I really thought about taking a year off of college, clearing my head, maybe going to volunteer with the Red Cross or something as equally worthy.

I can't believe September is already over. The semester is already flying by, and with each passing day, I wonder: "Have I made the most of this day? Have I fulfilled my potential? Have I made my parents proud? Have I managed to make a difference at all?" As much as I'd like to say yes to the above, I can't. There's that one part of me that always hesitates, always worries about what other people are going to think. I've got to stop that part of my brain.

I hate long entries, because if I'm reading someone else's, I barely make it through. Hopefully you did.